My week was better just because I didn't have to stay at home sick. I don't like sitting and doing nothing. I feel useless. I had a runny nose, and a fever, and that was about all the symptoms. Thank you for your prayers, I can feel their effects.
Thank you for the encouragement. It is harder sometimes to see that I'm always doing good than others, but I'm trying, and that's all that God asks. As you saw from the mass email, we didn't find anyone yet, but we're always looking. If we stop, we'll never find anyone. The blessings don't come until after the trial of our faith. Thank you for the reminder about my role, and the role of agency in the lives of others. I truly do feel both the weight of the thousands of souls placed on my shoulder, but also the light yoke that is Christ's Gospel.
I rarely talk about the end of his mission, but I told Alex that someone told me this week how sad he was to be home after his mission. His family was crying because they were happy to have him home, but he wanted to cry because he wanted to go back. This is what Alex said about that.
I will definitely feel like Brother B. when I come home, because I already don't want to leave at all. Of course I realize that there is more for me to do than just missionary work as part of the plan of happiness established by our Father, but it will be a sad departure from all those I have come to love. I don't usually think about my homecoming, but I just noticed that I have almost exactly 6 months left until I come home. How crazy!
This week has been a bit more productive and healthy. My scripture of the week is Doctrine and Covenants 84:80 "And any man that shall go and preach this gospel of the kingdom, and fail not to continue faithful in all things, shall not be weary in mind, neither darkened, neither in body, limb, nor joint; and a hair of his head shall not fall to the ground unnoticed. And they shall not go hungry, neither athirst." Kanji of the week is: 避難 pronounced "hee-nan" and means evacuation. Monday was not anything special, and I don't have anything to say about it. Tuesday we just talked to lots of people, and also had a lesson with our recent convert. Wednesday we went to a different area by train, and tried to visit less active members. Having not been to meet any of them, and not having a train that would get us back in time, we talked to people as we walked back to our bikes, ate dinner, and then had English class. That was normal. Thursday we had weekly planning. After that we did finding, and in the evening we had an activity that not too many people showed up to. Friday was zone conference, and it was great, as usual. After that, the only thing we were able to do was English class.