I sure wish I could get back into blogging and feeling normal, but I'm not there yet. For my birthday, my parents gave me Jessie Clark Funk's CD "Everything Speaks His Name". I was so happy to get it because I've wanted it for a long time. One song I've been listening to over and over is "Carry Me" and today I wanted to share it with you, but then I searched my blog archives and found out that I had shared it before in January and I didn't remember. So I searched for a video of a different song called "Again" on the same album. I can't find one anywhere, but I still want to share the lyrics with you.
If you go to Jessie Clark Funk's website, you can listen to part of the song. It's the third song on the album. And listen to her other great songs while you're there.
I’ve wrestled with demons and darkness.
I’ve wrestled with what has been lost.
I carry this crushing weight on my shoulders
And try not to think of the cost.
It’s more than a single decision.
It’s giving up part of myself.
It’s something I simply can’t do on my own
So I’m pleading with You for Your help.
Again and again
I’ve asked myself why.
I don’t think that I have any tears left to cry.
My soul is so tired and I’m longing for rest.
I’m giving my all and I’m doing my best.
It hurts to move on from the place I am in.
But You understand where I’ve been
And You reassure me it’s time to start over
I’m finally ready to listen.
I’m finally ready to hear,
Struggling to get a place You can reach me,
Where peace can speak louder than fear.
I can’t see the end of the story.
There’s no way to know how it ends.
For now I let go and I trust You to lead me
And show my heart where to begin.
All of the pain and confusion I’m going through
I’m turning it over to You,
Willing to trust it’s the right thing to do.